The main focus of my website is motherhood, but I wanted to take a moment and recognize the importance of being a wife. In my invalid state I have come to see my husband in new light. He has shown me what unconditional sacrifice is, and how much love he has for his family.

My husband and I had five out of our six children in the seven years we had been married. My oldest is from a previous marriage, but my husband loves and cares for her as his own. Five children in seven years is amazing! These years went by quickly and I thought we worked together well to raise them.

After the birth of our sixth child (as you know if you have been reading my blog), I suffered from severe post partum depression. At this time in my life I went through a really difficult time, and I felt that I had lost myself. My dear husband helped me through this and was there for me, even when I wasn’t there for him. During this time of trial for our marriage, he told me something that truly didn’t sink in until my accident. He said that when I have a new baby, I become consumed by the baby and everything else in my life, including him, becomes non-existent. I hadn’t realized this at all. As he told me this I began to reflect and realized that it was true. I did exclude everyone, even my best friend, him.

After my ankle was broken and I had a lot of time on my hands to think and to ponder, I found that I hadn’t been seeing him. My dearest love. I had been blinded by time, hormones and obligations. I hadn’t been putting him first or his needs before anyones. I took him for granted. I am sorry to say that I did this, but God helped me to see. Through this trial of being crippled I was shown what true love and devotion is about. I hope that I do not take him for granted or exclude him again. I hope that I can be as good a wife as he is a husband.

I could not be a good mother without his love and sacrifice for me. With his unconditional love and faith in me I have been able to have the freedom to be the mother I feel God wants me to be. I hope I will not fail. I also hope I will be able to support him as he has done for me.

Being a woman as a wife is even more important than being a woman as a mother.

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